I haven't been able to reach a midpoint or balance yet. I either diet or binge... but as far as I can recall, I have been doing this for over 20 years. Every time I start believing that food is pleasure... I slip into the "just one" lie.... which leads to just one day, then just one week, then all the freaking time.
I just have NO control whatsoever. Food cannot be pleasure for me. I have to get my pleasure elsewhere.
Self-respect is a very soothing pain reliever.