IE - Sadness and letting go of diets
I've been doing IE for about a month and have felt relatively well. My skills of discerning hunger are getting more keen. I'm also finding food more enjoyable, and other times struggling to enjoy something that I thought I would enjoy. For example yesterday we had an Oscars party and I made a prime rib, one of our favorites. As I was eating mindfully I found myself not enjoying it at all. Nothing was different about it than usual but I just didn't enjoy the texture or the flavor or anything about it really. I just didn't want it. This is all good, coming to some realizations about how and why I eat, everything is on track.
I digress, the struggle to find hope is lost on me these days. Letting go the scale, getting rid of clothes in my closet, everything is making me really sad and I don't know how to get past it. My friends are all happily chirping away about their diets and how they want to look for the summer, going shopping and looking forward and I'm trying to do something so completely different, nobody really understands it. I feel like I can't lose weight no matter what I do, and I have to spend a lot of energy accepting me as I am eventhough I've spent nearly a lifetime not wanting to.
I know there is no hope in dieting, I know that going on a diet will cause me to fail and gain more weight. I'm just hoping to get out of this funk soon and start to feel more positive. Anyone felt like they hit a wall sometimes? Who do you turn to for support? I do like to find support here honestly, but it's hard because there are so many dieters and who don't understand what it is that we need support with.
"If you pay attention to when you are hungry, what your body wants, what you are eating, when you've had enough, you end the obsession because obsession and awareness cannot coexist." - Geneen Roth