michlove, I'm sorry for all the anxiety you've been feeling lately. But I am happy to hear that you are taking your life back and doing what you want to do to make you happy. I used to be like that, too; do things to make others happy, but it made me miserable inside. Once you get past the anxiety of what your boyfriend will or will not accept of you, you are going to blossom into an independent and totally happy individual. I hope he can understand that this is what you need to be happy and that he has to love you unconditionally as is. You've got this, hon!
Lost my first 25 pounds on my own and the rest (so far) with Jenny Craig
If you hate starting over...STOP giving up!!!