The last couple of days have been a close call with water intake, but I've managed to stick to my 8 glasses of water a day! Currently trying to down all my water later in the day, man, it's hard to remember when I'm busy on the weekend! I was going to run today, but I didn't =(. If I don't run tomorrow then I will FAIL and that is not an option! So I will definitely run tomorrow!
The last few days have been a bit shitty as you can imagine. Yesterday I took the day off work, the manager who fired me was going to go into the school and tell the teachers what's going to happen to them next. I couldn't face seeing her, she HUMILIATED me in public. She was completely unprofessional and made it a personal attack and I felt so helpless and unable to defend myself. However, getting rid of me puts so much pressure on the rest of the team if they can't hire anyone suitable soon. So I hope to Jebus that the company suffers for giving me the boot at such a busy time of the year. My co-worker has been looking for a new job, my other co-worker hates working there too, so basically I wish that they go downhill as a result of getting rid of me =D. Spiteful, yes, but they deserve it.
My future plan is to move out of my apartment (just given my landlord a months notice) and either move in with my boyfriend or my friends. Sounds like I should obviously live with my boyfriend, but he does live in a TINY apartment. So I'm going to see if my friends offer is fair, because they have a lot more room (I'd get my own room) so it would be nice to have a bit more space.
After that I'm going to give myself until April to find a job. I am leaving Japan in September regardless, so I'm really looking for a no strings attached kind of affair. A place where leaving wouldn't mean a big deal to them, where I would easily be replaced kind of deal. I would hate to join a school where they really needed me to stay and I just jumped ship early. I know I COULD, but I don't want to. I'm too nice like that! I'd feel so guilty.
If I can't find a job by the end of April then I'm going to move back to England. My parents have been SO supportive, I think my Mum deep down really wants me to come home. But they would let me live rent free until I found a job so there is a plus to that plan. It would mean being away from my boyfriend for 4 months(ish), but we've been away from each other a LOT longer. While it's not what I want, it would mean I wouldn't have to eat into savings just to stay in Japan.
So there's my plan, I'm starting to feel a lot more focused and content with life now that I know what I'm going to do. I'm still a bit worried about not finding a job, because I really don't want to have to leave, but it's not the end of the world if I do leave. I know some people wouldn't even have a safety net like a place in their parents house, so I'm so lucky in that regard.
Thanks for listening to my rants!! Congrats to all of you who have completed phase 1!! Are you getting pumped for phase 2??
- Thank you
You may be a random internet person as you say, but I appreciate your concern more than you can imagine!
- Thank you for your advice, you're right, things will work out ok eventually! That sucks you got sent back to your old job...but great that you ended up being in a better position eventually! How was lunch at the fancy place? That gif...was absolutely amazing. I've stared at it for way longer than I should giggling. He really wants that water!
- You pipped me off the top of the weigh in chart!! Go you! Although I will catch you ;p. Your kind words have been such a comfort to me, I can't thank you enough. You know exactly what to say to make a person feel better about themselves! My boyfriend has come around to the idea of me living with him, thankfully, he had his concerns but actually listened to me when I tried to distill his fears so he's ok with me moving in. I'm still going to see if living with my friends is better for me financially, but it's nice that he's willing to let me live with him. You're right, I will get through this! Just trying to remember they didn't fire me because I was bad at my job or because my co-workers complained, but because they're arse holes! =D. Wish I was in California too ;p.
So sorry the stress got on top of you! I can't imagine the practicing that must go into a performance. But I'm happy that after you released all that stress you felt more focused. Sometimes it takes crashing a bit to pick yourself up and feel more positive.
- Yeah, shady is definitely the perfect word to describe their actions. I'm doing the same thing tonight, cramming in all my water late! My bladder is going to be like "what the eff?! WHY?" Great job on completing phase 1!!