! Glad to see I have some company in here!
Oh man, I NEVER trust the number on the scale during my TOM (time of month). I'm always up 2-3 lbs, and as long as I eat healthily and keep active, the scale always drops in a WOOSH of water weight the day after it ends.
So try not to be disheartened---!
I adore that your approach is working on loving yourself again, because I'm in that boat as well. I'm also working on repairing my relationship with food (finally) and trying to change my mentality from "I am a fat person" to "I am a person carrying extra weight right now."
Love your determination, keep checking in constantly!
I'm a bit confused scale-wise right now because I'm doing a "Biggest Loser" at work with coworkers, and I have a scale at home AND one at work, and they differ by a couple of lbs. So I'll weigh in properly on the scale I've been using (the work one) tomorrow morning.
Back to the beginning again, but trying to make it a lifestyle change instead of a crash-calorie-counting obsession. Journey #1:
Lost 40 lbs, then gained 50.