I'm so very VERY sorry about your miscarriages
You truly are NOT a failure, maintenance is a tough business. I'm extremely sensitve to carbs and usually only have two fruit a day with the grain carbs in the morning with a Ph3 breakfast (my fruit are morning and with my protein snack at night). Supper really is just meat and veggies almost 99% of the time. VIP generally only has a shake in the morning as he chooses to have popcorn more often then not and truely isn't a breakfast eater. I think the only reason that he has the shake is that I harp at him for "something in the morning to get the fire burning". I keep it generally to a fun meal once a week, at the beginning it was the whole day. Please please don't feel like a failure look at how far you've come.