I sort of feel your pain. I haven't gotten to goal and regained, but I've been stuck 22-32 pounds from goal for a full year now. The fluctuations got to me so bad, I'm currently on a scale break. I guess it's good practice for maintenance, right?
Hang in there and keep working at it. You've done it before, you can do it again. No excuses, no ignoring it. You've got this!
And for what it's worth, you inspire me.