You decide you finally want to indulge in a cookie or some ice cream. Either you are craving it, -whether its in your calorie budget or not- you decided you earned it for eating clean for x amount of time, or you just want the ******* goodie because ****, we're all human beings and want a sweet every once in a while.
So you go to get said goodie and your friend, family member or significant other gives you a condescending look and says
"You don't need that"
"I thought you were dieting"
"whats the point of working out if you're going to eat that?"
"No cookie for you"
Or something else negative. Now you feel like a fat slob for wanting it in the first place and ashamed. You resent said food item. Whether you eat it or not you still want more, but now feel the need to sneak around and eat it alone or avoid any sweets at all costs in fear someone will give you that look and say you don't need it.
Anyone else deal with this? I am not trying to lose weight AT THE MOMENT. I am trying to bulk up muscle so I'm not really watching my calories -and for peace of mind- and I eat clean ALL meals and MOST snacks but occasionally I want a ****ing kit kat bar or some cookies. But my boyfriend always discourages it and makes me feel like a cow. We used to always eat pizza and cookies on the couch and be "fat" together but now he's all anal about it -he'll still sit around and eat sour sweets or gummies but if I dip into the chocolate I get looks-
It just makes me feel like ***. My eating was so disordered not too long ago and now I'm starting to look as food as yummy fuel for my body and muscles, not just numbers... but when I am denied a treat it makes me want it so much more and hate myself for it. It makes me put the foods on a pedestal and think "I cannot have.." but then I want it more. Which will lead to binging eventually.
I am very active and weight train almost every day on top of an active job. So I should be allowed to sit on my *** and eat some chocolate every once in a while
I hate feeling guilty when I want something.