Originally Posted by Pinkhippie
Thanks! I am learning but I feel like I am learning that its impossible.
Here are my challenges.
1st: the nursing! My baby is a year old but still eats very little solid food and nurses a ton. I am always HUNGRY. yet, I must be eating over my caloric needs because I either stay the same weight or gain a little weight and have to be careful and conscious to get back down to my 30 lbs overweight. So its really hard to get in touch with my body when I feel like its lying to me.
2nd: I want to wind down after the kids are in bed with FOOD. The problem is I am a little hungry from the bedtime nursing AND I want to unwind and relax. My husband pops in Killzone ( a first person shooter) to relax and unwind. I realized that I need a Killzone.
I am totally conscious of the fact that I really am not that hungry and that I don't need to eat chocolate to satisfy my bodys physical needs but my mental self tells me that in fact yes in order to relax and unwind I DO need chocolate and if I don't have it I am miserable. And I say chocolate loosely. I usually eat way over my hunger needs when I eat treats at night.
Things I have improved on:
I have gotten MUCH better at eating slowly. At first I was really anxious about going slow, it was SO hard. now it is slowly becoming more of a habit and I do find myself leaving food on my plate more and more as I realize that I am not hungry anymore. (problem is I often seem to think Im full before I really am and then end up snacking after meals. I need to get better at figuring out my real satiety point. Again, a challenge with the nursing and the constant hunger)
I also am eating more mindfully. Even when I eat my treats at night now I am sitting at the table doing nothing but eating. No reading or tv or computer.
I have gotten much better at legalizing food and not feeling guilt for eating treats. I just recognize that I have a need that is not hunger that I am filling with food. And I am getting better at identifying what those needs are. However, it still doesn't seem to stop me from eating yet.
So improvements but its still very daunting. Sorry to blather on about myself, I just hope that reading my thought process and challenges could help someone else down the road.
Pinkhippie - sorry to hear you are having some frustrations, but it also looks like you are making some great improvements too with legalizing foods, eating mindfully etc. Because I have never had a baby or breastfed, it's really tough for me to give advice on this particular thing. I notice though you say you are hungry all the time, but then also say that sometimes at night after dinner you are concious that you are not that hungry but feel you need chocolate. Maybe what you need to work on is differentiating the difference between physical hunger and mental hunger (just an idea, I could be wrong). I have a very tough time sometimes differentiating these 2 things as well. What I've read in some of the books that have helped me is realizing that when actual physical hunger is not the driving force behind eating, there is no point of satiety that can be reached since there is no physical symptoms that need to be shut off by the eating. I don't know if I'm explaining it right, but when I have actual hunger and I eat, I can feel the hunger feelings go away. When I eat for emotional reasons like wanting to unwind at the end of a stressful day, there is just no off switch since nothing to do with physical hunger was turned on in the first place.
Another thing that has helped me to differentiate between physical hunger and mental hunger is the foods I am wanting. When I am physically hungry, I usually want real food (not all the time but mostly), and when I'm mentally hungry I want hyperpalatable foods like cookies and chocolate etc. I think it has helped me to recognize that hyperplalatable foods have a drug like effect on the brain like a sedative. It seems like for alot of people (like tonnes and tonnes of people) have difficulty from the time after dinner until bedtime. It is natural to want to unwind in the hours leading to bedtime, and all the daily stressors and thoughts and worries can make it really tough to do so.
EDIT: opps, posted before I was done. I am continueing this post below.