Originally Posted by surfergirl2
Btw this weekend, i went to a friend's party. I happened to have eaten something before, so i wasn't too hungry--ate a little food and didn't touch the desserts at all. I just remember around the same time last year, i went to the same party and i ate three cupcakes (and other stuff) and felt so awful about myself that after the party, i went home and binged. But more than anything i just remember the feeling of self-hatred that i had during that party, while i was trying to talk to friends and pretend everything was normal. It was so awful. I am so glad i will never go back to that again.
Congratulations on this victory. I have had a couple moments like this that is such a reminder not to go back to my old ways no matter how tempting it is during those times of overindulgences that I have. But I just hang in there and notice the overindulgences are usually followed by natural underindulgences if there is such a word; so it keeps me believing in the process. Everything seems to balance out.