I've always been fat, just different degrees of it and I've always been one of those people who was "this is how I am, if you don't like it don't look" when secretly I was like well I don't like this either. I've tried pretty much every diet out there along with just good old fashioned calorie counting and busting butt at the gym with very little success. A couple yrs ago we decided we would try to have a baby and to date we've had no luck and I am convinced that it has to do with my weight, plus the fact that if I do get pregnant I'm going to have to carry around and extra however many pounds.
The biggest reason though is one day I showed up for work and there was an envelope on my desk. I opened it up and there were my "before" pics from a bootcamp class I did. Those pics knocked my socks off. I couldn't believe that's what I looked like. I honestly had no idea.
I decided from that moment to stop being delusional about all aspects of my life not just my weight.