Thanks so much veggiedaze, it is funny cuz the binge wasnīt "relieving". You know when you go shopping for binge foods and canīt wait to stuff your face. This time was different. I had the stuff at home, but I worked on a paper for college first, cleaned the apartment and kinda waited to binge. I knew I donīt "NEED" to binge, I just knew that I wanted to, but wanted to not binge all day long as I used to.
While I ate I didnīt get to the point of satisfaction where I felt that it helps in any way. I ate and thought "this is useless".
I just hate when my weight is in the focus. I feel like I donīt even want to lose weight because I know they will give me compliments and that usually makes me feel like "thank god you lost weight, you were so big before".
As you can see I am very sensitive when it comes to my weight and the way I eat.
"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new." - Socrates
04/29/2013 - 202.6 lbs