Buttonsandbones it is hard to say these things out loud, isn't it? I am glad you felt you could share this with us.
We sometimes tell ourselves things and as you say dance around them with others, but I believe once we have the courage (as you did) to write it down for others to see or share it out loud with others we can begin to actually face the problem head on and deal with it.
I am in your corner cheering you on (picture short old lady with pom-poms)
...we are going to do this, no matter how hard and how long it takes.