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Old 12-22-2012, 06:11 PM   #4
thewalrus0
Lifestyle Changes
 
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Usually my thoughts are something like,

Not worth it.
How could you do this yourself again?
Am I ever going to have control over this?
Why do I keep giving in?
This is killing me.

I stopped really being mean to myself, because I generally like myself and I don't believe binges are something I do with the intent of hurting myself or quitting my healthy habits. I just feel like there's a screwed up neural pathway in my brain somewhere that tells me to eat large amounts of gross food for apparently no reason other than giving in feels really good. I'm working really hard to fix whatever piece of me is causing it but for now when I binge I just kind of sit there dumbfounded, because I can't even fathom why I would do that to myself. I don't know what part of my brain is making it happen, but it sucks.
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