The last concert I went to, oddly, was a contemporary classical performance which included a song for which I wrote the libretto.
I dressed up and looked good and had a nice time. However, I am notoriously bad with directions and had gotten lost on the way to the place and walked three times as far as I needed to. Being overweight & wearing heels and a dress not designed for comfort made me way more self-conscious and way less social than I would have liked.
I realized that planning in advance helps me to feel comfortable despite my discomfort with my figure, but it keeps me from being as spontaneous as I used to be and as I'd like. I'm hoping to get that back with weight loss. This means that I need to be committed to seeing results, not just going through the motions. That kinda scares me.
This thread makes me miss shows and concerts. Maybe I should do more of that and not feel like life is a reward earned only after repairing my deficiencies in hotness. In the past ten years I've gone up and down with the same 50 pounds over and over and I'm in a life-lull at the moment and now wondering if those things are related... :/
11/10 (194). 6/11 (188). 7/11 (178). 11/11 (165). 1/12 (174). 3/12 (175). 4/12 (172). 5/12 (178). Now: 7/14 I'm 188.
Mini-Goal 1: (-10 pounds = 178) --
Mini Goal 2: (-20 pounds = 168) --
Goal Weight: (-23 pounds = 165) --
Eventual Goal Weight: 150 -- someday