This is making me crazy. After getting to my lowest weight of 185, over two years I have regained 30 ( maybe more-I'm terrified of getting on the scale, was last weighed in Nov of 2011 though and was 215 )
What do I think happened? I got scared, I had never been that small in my adult life. I started getting some attention about my new look, and it freaked me out.
Also, after stalling in the 180's for almost a year, I simply got tired of saying no to ice cream, pizza, and other junk. I thought if I can't eat this stuff, and lose weight, I am simply going to eat this stuff. Oh, how it BACKFIRED. In the amount of 30+ pounds.
Now, I can't seem to STOP eating. I eat until I'm stuffed. I'm so depressed about this. It's like I want to make healthy choices, I want to lose weight and become healthy, I want to look FIT, I want to play with my nieces and nephews and not get winded.
But the food is there, at work, at home, ( I am living with my parents to save money ) and I SNACK while watching tv, or tinkering on the internet.
I always feel disgusted with myself after eating like this, but I feel like it has this hold on me.
God help me. Anyone who has read this to the end, Thank you!
Anyone that has any advice to offer, please do. I wish I had more people to talk to that had their health as a priority, but I simply don't.