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Old 03-07-2012, 12:46 PM   #7
One with the Wind and Sky
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Posts: 1,965

S/C/G: 360/246/150

Height: 5' 8"


Being invisible. Not attracting men (that was so scary when I was younger, as I was abused when I was a child). Getting to eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Hey, who wants to take a midnight run to Taco Bell?

Several years back I found a plan I could stick with and started exercising, and lost weight like crazy. But then the guys started to notice me. I couldn't handle the attention at my lowest adult weight and went right back to eating my emotions.

Things are different now. Happily married and out of a previously abusive relationship, but currently dealing with a different set of anxieties. I have to plow through the mental block of getting below 250 pounds. Doing my best to eat better so I can feel better, and not to rely on junk food to satisfy my emotions.

I think I may be able to handle being visible for the first time in my life. We'll see what happens in the coming months.

★ Goal for 2017: Get down to 220 ★
★ Ultimate Goal: 150 ★
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