Last night my husband and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie before midnight, and he asked me, "Did you make a New Year's resolution?" I replied, "No, because I never stick to them." I know myself enough not to lie.
But the truth is I want to be healthy and active again for my own happiness and my family's sake. I've yo yo dieted and exercised my whole life. Looking back, the years when I was happiest as an adult were the years I weighed a healthy weight or within 10-15 pounds of a healthy weight. So why do I screw up, slack off and gain it all back over and over again?
On New Year's 2010, 4 years ago I made a resolution, and was doing great all that year, even getting back down into the high 150's after our third child was born. Then, over the next year my motivation to exercise regularly waned and I was back to emotional eating again. The one good thing is that I have been able to have 'mini spurts' of activity that has kept my weight about the same the last year and a half. But I haven't been able to follow through long enough to actually lose anything.
I want to lose 30 pounds and it would be great to lose 40/45, but my metabolism is so low that I know it would realistically take half a year to even lose the first 20. It just doesn't come off as easy as when I was young. This is discouraging, mainly because I'm so hungry when losing weight. I do enjoy walking. My dog appreciates when I take her for regular walks. It's the being hungry and not being able to eat like my husband and kids do that irritates me.
Anyway, I'm hoping to get to know you!