Solace, you are not alone!!!
You've gone through so much recently, so many upheavals, so many stressors, but it sounds like you're doing what you must for yourself to move forward, awesome!!! I've struggled all my life with my weight, and in the past 15 or so years with health problems that sent me into a major tailspin depression wise, I've been so low for the past 2+ years, I let it consume me ... but there comes a time where you have to either decide to pull the hole in behind yourself or start climbing out. Sounds like you've decided to keep on climbing, girl, good for you!
The way forward is incredibly hard but also simple: You put one foot in front of the other, it's how you go for a walk, how you go for a bike ride -- you get the point. Make little changes, nurture things that are "doable" in your life. If all you do today is walk 10 minutes it's still 10 more than if you walked nothing, you know? If all you do is eat on plan and don't give in to temptations, then that's enough. If you do both of those, be proud, if you do more, boast about it. Blog your brains out, vent, and keep taking one step after the other.
The 40s aren't so bad, one nice thing about them, you sort of start prioritizing your life realistically and it's easier to be comfortable in your skin (well, it's kind of looser so it stands to reason ... BTW, I just turned 48, is my cynicism showing?)
Most of all, hang in there and Welcome!
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