Thanks for your answers! I went for a walk yesterday and saw lots of people who did not mind how they looked and what others looked like. I also noticed I am afraid of being seen in casual clothes, not so much of the shape of my body. It's as if I found it hard to acknowledge there is a life outside work, and to let people in that other, silenced part of my life.
Thanks a lot for your advice, guys. I'll follow it!
Goal met: 30 pounds lost!
Next goals: Run 10k
Final goals: abs, no more overeating, four pounds less