Hi I have not been here since 2009. I'll be 46 in about 5 weeks, and it's time for me to crawl out of the can of frosting and start living. I started counting points last week. I also have done a lot of thinking as to why I can't stick to anything and self sabotage my own efforts. I ordered a few self help books to figure out why I do what I do. Why and when did food become more important to me than my own health both physically and mentally. Why does it feel so good to stuff down 5 pieces of pizza yet so bad. The whole time I'm doing this, I almost feel controlled like I can't stop. Afterwards is horrible as I berate myself for doing this. I have to make a choice; either stay fat and miserable or take control.
I made the choice to take control. I'm not going to give up because the weight is comming off to slow. It will take me a year to lose 50 or 60 pounds not 3 months. I'm going to eat what I want but count WW points.
I can't do a diet that is nothing but vegetables, fruits and lean meat. I get bored within weeks. I know nutrition so well I should have my Master's degree! Now I just to figure out why i do what I do.
Caring thoughts to all of you fighting the fight.
Tanne