So I've been back on a more healthy eating plan for about 3 weeks now, thanks to you all and the support of my sister/best friend. I lost 30 lbs a couple of years ago but gained it all back because, like so many others, I thought that once I lost it I could go back to my old way of eating. That makes no sense, but that's what I thought! Anyway, my "plan" consists of just cutting out the tons of junk I eat and being more mindful. When I want a snack, I have one but it's an apple or some nuts or a yogurt, not a box of cheeze nips or a bag of chips. I've cut out most of the diet pop I was drinking and am just generally making healthier choices.
Anyway....last night at the store I bought some Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches. Yum! So I had one after dinner, and even though I was very full, the devil on my shoulder started saying, "That was good! I should have another! It was only 140 calories!" I reminded myself that I was really, really full and besides, Sunday morning is weigh-in day so I will not have another ice cream sandwich.
A couple of minutes later, I found myself walking out of the kitchen with another ice cream sandwich and a bite taken out of it! It was like I was in a trance or something; I do NOT remember making the decision to have another one. I remember opening the freezer and taking it out, but I wasn't really fully aware of what I was actually doing until I had already taken a bite.
This was a shocking event to me. How often do I do this? How much am I really eating that I'm not even aware of? I took a second bite after the awareness hit, and then I wrapped up the treat and put it back in the freezer. I'll have it tonight after dinner, but jeez--it was really, really strange to find myself eating that thing after I had made the conscious decision NOT to eat. It was like I was on auto-pilot. Has anyone else experienced this kind of disconnect?