Hi gals :
Just signed back on now. Yep, Mol, born and bred in Brooklyn ! Major suckage does not even begin to describe it. I nearly lost my mind. I gave up my job with the City of NY in social services, my health insurance and half my future pension. I am out more money than I can ever hope to recoupe for the rest of my life. I am sure you are all quite familiar with the saying ' **** hath no fury like a woman scorned' ??? Well................I will leave that to your imagination, let me put it this way, I did not take the news of being dumped 5 weeks before the wedding very nicely ( or lady-like !! )
Want to laugh ?? This is my 17th attempt at WW !!!! The reason why things are different this time is that I have lost everything in my life now, and hit rock bottom. My last binge was so bad that I was doubled over in pain and in a cold sweat. The pain lasted about 4 hours and while I was sitting her on the couch miserable and in agony, I swore that after 25 years of this madness, I would never binge again. I got thru the night, and got to bed at 5:45 am semi-recovered and that was that. Have not binged since.
I graduated from a $ 37,000 eating disorder program 5 years ago ( my health insurance paid for it at the time ) and left even heavier than when I entered.
It actually took me to lose everything I had and held dear, then to make myself so violently ill by abusing myself to make me change my life.
I am so happy to be here now, I have been so welcomed and will stick around to both ask for help and to willingly give it to you all as well.
Go see The Dark Knight if you have not already. Heath Ledger's performance is mesmerizing.