So many things.
-Being 'outed' as fat online. You know, tagged in FB pictures and all that crap. I hate it. I look like an inhuman lardbased gorgon in photographs.
-Got on the scale one day and it said 328. I promised myself for a long time I would never go above 300. And I did without knowing it somehow. Kicked me right in the butt.
-I didn't have a neck. I wanted a neck very suddenly.
-Hearing my knees crackle, being in pain going up and down stairs, numbness in my thighs when standing too long, fatigue. It all added up one day. I felt a million years old.
This picture: http://i.imgur.com/bktXR.jpg "Oh holy crap, I'm fat and there's a bright flash. HURRY, LOOK FATTER AND BRAIN DAMAGED"
"I believe in you. I believe in your authenticity, your uniqueness, your intensity, your wildness. I love your restlessness and your hunger. You possess the energy that, if unleashed, could transform, inspire and heal the world." - Eve Ensler