"I can't imagine you fat"
Someone said this to me over the weekend and it was such a huge ego boost and sort of wake-up call. Even though I have been feeling great in general and feel like my normal self instead of my fat self (it's sad that 15ish years of my life were not spent feeling like me), I still feel like people can look at me and know that I used to be fat. Like not even that long ago. It made me realize that as much as I think I'm good in the head, I'm still totally transitioning.
Someone here said something that has stuck with me, too, though I can't remember who said it. About how being a little more reserved/shy/timid is endearing or looked at more kindly when you're overweight, and when you're thin it's looked at as you are a *****. I think this has happened to me a couple of times. Although anyone that knows me would laugh to hear me called reserved, I tend to be quiet when I first meet people and nervous, and at work my first interactions are strictly professional (though I am also not particularly professional with people I know well at work either, haha). Someone told me that their intern was scared of me and I was baffled until I realized that she never knew me fat an I am reserved and anxious sometimes and that might come off as *****y since I don't have the fat pity factor going on.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that stuff. Uh, talk away? ha.
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