I have decided to start over at phase 1 today. Some of you may know that I had a bad attitude and messed up last week. Then this weekend a lovely friend I haven't seen in ages came to visit, and brought a homemade tea - fresh bread, fruit, cookies, etc. It was a total surprise to me, and she just wanted to be a blessing. Now, I had the freedom to say no thanks and explain, but she was so excited, and I made a quick decision to just enjoy, but not over indulge. Then after church I got invited to a cook out. Since DH died I don't get invited anywhere, so I chose to go, and again I didn't over do, but I enjoyed the food.
On the drive home I decided not to regret this. I needed the friendship, and I did OK with the food. But I'm going to start over, and this time view it not as something I have to get through, but as a way to get back to the healthy life I have enjoyed before. SB is just a way to help me make good decisions about food, not a "****-like" program designed to dominate my life or make me miserable. Right??
So I'm back on the beach, but this time I'm looking forward to the stay.