This morning, January first, only the most significant weigh in day of the year, my wii fit stopped working!
DD decided to update the wii, so she could use the Just dance game we've bought to help with our exercise routine. She neglected to tell me she was updating it (I would have stopped her because we had to crack it to make it multi region to allow for the US version of Wii fit). Consequentially I had an immense hissy fit when I realised I could not weigh in this morning. I'm a daily weigher and NEED the fix that is getting on the scales. It keeps me accountable and helps me see where i am going. I yelled at her, whilst she was asleep, and stamped my foot, all to no avail
The point here is I seem to be fixated with the scale, and am terrified i will put weight on because I'm not weighing !! I know it's ridiculous. I know I behaved in a really childish way and that it is NOT DD's fault. I actually shocked myself with the severity of my emotions, and am aware that my "journey" is taking me over in some way. I know it has to for it to succeed, but am a bit scared by my over - reaction.
I have seen lots of people that I have not seen for a wee while over Christmas. They have all been extremely complimentary about my 103lbs (could be more but can't weigh in to find out......) weight loss, and all think I'm crazy to want to lose another 40lbs. Skews your thinking a bit. I know I need to get the 40lbs off to be "normal". I am also going ski-ing in 18 days time. Ski resorts are not exactly low-carb friendly, so am extremely scared about how to deal with that situation
All seems a bit overwhelming right now. As I read this back I appreciate I seem shallow and vain, but I have tried soooooooo hard to get to this point- it feels like an emotional slap and a very significant one to be faced with no weigh in , and ten days in carb city at this point. I was good over Christmas and New Year and lost 2lbs. Emotionally I need a boost to get me through- advice wonderful Chickies?