Actually it made total sense.
I love curves. I don't really gravitate towards thin, fragile women. But for that matter, I don't gravitate towards thin, fragile personalities. I LOVE soft butch types. I like to be the one being held, typically, and obviously that's not to say roles are set in stone. I just love a strong, curvaceous, brave, sexy, butch woman.
That said, that's NOT what I'm like. At all. And when I look around at what I want to be, that's not even close to what I'd model myself after. It doesn't make it a double standard, that's just how it is. I think weight is the same thing. We don't necessarily want to be what we are attracted to.