I recommend updating your ticker. Yeah, it's depressing but it's honest and acknowleging that new number might finally get you motivated. If you leave it with showing your old success then it's even more depressing plus you have the whole "lying to myself" thing weighing you down.
You know what you have to do, and you know you can because you've done it before! And this time when you get to maintenance you'll be ready for how tricky it is. If this was easy we wouldn't all be here - but you can do it!
"Vision without action is a daydream ~ Action without vision is a nightmare"