I am about six weeks into this most recent journey and think I have been doing very well. This morning, I did my weekly weigh in and found that I lost 6.2 pounds this last week, which was the most since I started
I tried on a pair of what I call my in-between jeans (the jeans I bought once I starting gaining back the weight I lost several years ago) and they buttoned! Just last week I still felt i had an inch or two before I could do that. So here I am dancing around my house doing the happy dance.
Here is the issue. The last week or so, I find myself staying at myself in the mirror, clothed or unclothed, it doesn't matter, and thinking that I am starting to look so much better. That doesn't seem like a bad thing except that I am far from thin. For many years I hovered right around 195...then went to 209...then to 179 and back to about 195 until my latest sedentary job brought me all the way up to 224, the largest I've ever been. Even after today's weigh in, I am still at 206 and not even back to the weight that I hated for years and years. However, I still look in the mirror and think, hey I don't look so bad. I am afraid of being over confident. Never having any confidence, it doesn't take much for me to feel like I am going over the edge.
No one else seems to notice yet anyway. I asked hubby yesterday and he said yea I notice, you seem more spry (which of course made me laugh) So why do I notice it so drastically?
The longer I have typed, the less sense I think this makes so I will end it here. Thanks for reading!