Good afternoon,
This weekend I found myself ill-prepared and away from home for a 5 day stint at a convention. I had no idea what to expect as this was the first convention I'd ever gone to - of any kind. I don't see myself in a kind light, so I shy away from any large public groupings. I quickly found that there were no healthy alternatives for food or drink. It was rather disheartening, I must say; in a way.
The other thing I realized is that there were quite a number of other large people there which helped ease my discomfort and feeling out of place. Everyone was so welcoming and friendly, despite how anyone looked. There were no jeering looks or sneers. It was a wonderful experience (aside from the lack of healthier food, lol).
I found myself slipping a little bit back into bad habits during this time because of everyone's friendly demeanor. It was a "you are as you are" kind of thing and no one cared about anything other than having a great time. Which meant, during the day, I wound up taking the group mentality of "when in Rome..." but hating myself each night when I cloistered myself away in my hotel room; far far from temptation.
I can motivate myself on disapproval and disdain and any negativeness. I use it to propel my success; I see it as the tool it is to drive me further and harder and not give up. I want to see the look on their face when I finally do reach my goal. It will be my greatest reward. "Take that, nay-sayers!" lol. Anyway.
When I got back home, I sat and thought about everything I'd done and consumed. Admittedly, it could have been much worse. I didn't keep track of everything I'd consumed as I decided I knew the generality of what I should/shouldn't do or have. In general, I stuck to my guns. I did find myself enjoying a few things I hadn't in several years. Meh, balances itself out, I suppose. Now that I'm home, I have returned to what I have come to enjoy (and resumed counting!).
I think my biggest fall into temptation was tempura cheesecake with a side of tempura icecream (I hadn't had either in 11 years!) - now, this was 1 order each and split between 3 people. It wasn't a lot per person, which makes it *slightly* better. and I had a few sodas.
What would you consider to be your biggest temptation and hard to deny yourself?
~Jessie