I have been on here before, I am the typical start and go again person. I don't want to be her anymore. I just can't. I feel beat up and well just too damn fat. I am going to reintroduce myself, I don't think I have done that yet anyway. My name is Lynn, I am 26 years old and a single Mama to the two most beautiful children I have ever seen, they are 1 and 2 years old. I go to school full time and I start work part time in a couple of weeks. I am in school for nursing but I feel like such a hypocrite. How can I care about people's health and take care of them if I am this big? Would a patient take me seriously? Does anyone take me seriously?
I have been fat all of my life. By 11 years old, I was standing 5'3, weighing 120 and wearing a D cup. I was the active fatty though, I played sports- basketball, softball, and cheered. I dropped out of cheerleading right before high school because of my weight. I didn't want to be the fattest anymore, it didn't matter how good I was. The next year in high school, I quit basketball and softball. I really wish I would of stayed in softball, I was on the all star team, pretty darn good. Maybe I could of got a scholarship to college, maybe I wouldn't be this big now. There is always the what ifs. I don't want to look back a year from today and think "what if I would of started losing weight last year."
I want to live. I want to be healthy, not just for me but for my babies. I want to watch them graduate high school.
Sorry to ramble, I'll get down to it. At 26 years old (just had a birthday), I am 5'3 and 310 lbs, my BMI is 55. My whole body hurts. All of it. My knees, especially my left one feels like it is going to buckle under all of this weight. My doctor me that my knees are supporting 450 lbs of pressure. I am pre diabetic. I have gallstones. My doctor told me that he is surprised that I don't have "fat folds" on my stomach like "most people your weight do." I am not exactly sure what that is but I don't want them so I got to lose this weight. Not just because of that though, of course. I have this fat pocket on my knee that has been there for years and he said it was the first time he ever seen a fat deposit like that on a knee. I bruise super easily. And sometimes my heart hurts, I think that may be anxiety induced. I had an EKG done and they said it looked normal.
I don't really have a diet plan, I just have to go at it full force, quit the bad foods cold turkey. I am thinking 1500 calories a day, I am guessing I normally eat 2500 - 3000 a day. Any suggests on a meal plan?
If you have read it this far, thanks so much.