Still struggling. Desperate to at least not slide back after all I did before our big trip, but I'm feeling like it's taking all I've got to hang on by my fingernails, much less move forward. Don't know what it's going to take to get me moving. I need a GOAL -- something that I really care about, that I can't do if I don't work toward it. My trainer left last week. If anyone in Florida needs an awesome trainer, I now know one!
Part of the issue is that it's crazy busy at work right now, and it probably will be until the end of the month. So I'm staying late most days, which means I'm not getting home until after it's dark. Which means I'm not getting my exercise in. And we're also trying to clear out the final piles of STUFF from when my husband moved into our place TEN YEARS AGO. So yeah, it's stressful! I can't get my left eye to stop twitching! And the cat's got allergies this year, as do I, and we're both miserable (and he's on 2 different anitibiotics
). Which is a long way of saying that I have plenty of excuses, but really no valid reasons for being SO far off track for so long. I really need a kick in the badonkadonk. But nothing I've tried so far has worked, and I'm just lost as to what will provide the final motivation.
I've put on almost everything I lost before the trip, and if I go back to where I was before then, I may lose it all. No motivation, no nothing. This is reminding me of where I was mentally during the years I put it all on. NOT a good thing. Not even my wedding was enough motivation to get me moving back then. The only thing that's worked so far was preparing for the trip with my awesome trainer. And now I have no trip and no trainer, and it's back to just me. Which doesn't feel like enough.
So I'm stuck. I miss training, I miss having a goal, I miss not wanting to sit on the sofa all the time, I miss having a clean home, I miss being happy. I'm stuck.
I'll make it somehow -- I always do, I guess! -- but for right now, I'm feeling a little desperate.
Thanks for listening, guys! I hope your month is going better than that!