Has anyone seen my motivation? I seem to have lost it!
I go up and down in weight a lot because I can't seem to motivate myself long enough to make it stick. So, I'm back again because I'm fat again.
I had managed to lose quite a bit of weight, but then I got depressed and gained it back. I re-lost half of it and now I've re-gained it again.
I don't like how I feel in my body right now. I'm tired and everything hurts. I am uncomfortable and embarrassed of how I feel. I don't like the fat on my belly or my thighs or my upper arms; the rest of me, I'm okay with. So, I'm trying to make changes for a while, again.
I need to make smarter and more sensible goals, I think. Maybe checking in here every day will help me do that.
This week, I haven't worked out. I didn't eat more than 1700 calories, but some of those calories were from chocolate. It's been an arduous work week and I find that I am exhausted. So, I'm hoping to go to the gym WThF this week, at least.
I'm really struggling to stay motivated, but hoping that coming here might help me with that.
11/10 (194). 6/11 (188). 7/11 (178). 11/11 (165). 1/12 (174). 3/12 (175). 4/12 (172). 5/12 (178). Now: 7/14 I'm 188.
Mini-Goal 1: (-10 pounds = 178) --
Mini Goal 2: (-20 pounds = 168) --
Goal Weight: (-23 pounds = 165) --
Eventual Goal Weight: 150 -- someday