Hello,
I guess I can start by telling my story. I am a 32 year old mother of 1 son, who is almost a year old.
I have always had "weight issues" and this has been a life-long struggle. Before I was pregnant with my son I got down to 145, the lowest I had been in a long time. Before that I usually fluctuated between 160-170. When I was pregnant with my son I got up to 230. The day after my son was born I weighed 210. Last summer and fall I stayed around 190-195. I nursed for 9 months, nursing did not help take off the baby weight like some people claim.
Then I got pregnant again got up to 198 (3 months pregnant) lost the baby.
Here I am almost a month after the loss, sitting between 190-195 trying to get under 190 and back into my regular cloths. It makes it more depressing wearing maternity cloths, I want to get over the loss of the baby and feel good about myself again.
The last month I have become a vegetarian again, mostly because I hate cooking meat and it grosses me out to eat it. I have always been grossed out by meat and was a vegetarian for a long time until I tried the adkins diet which helped me get down into the 150's. I was a vegetarian in the past for about 7 years, I gained weight because I ate alot of cheese and pasta. This time I am vegetable focused.. no grilled cheeses for this girl. I also eat fish probably 4-5 times a week.
I have been trying to do the calorie counting thing, I try to stay under 1000 calories a day. I walk alot for exercise. I "pop" raspberry ketones every day (300 mgs a day). I drink alot of water, eat whole grains, lots of fruit and veggies. Weight loss has always been a huge struggle for me, I think because I have been weight obsessed my whole life and will try every yo yo diet, crash diet, and diet pill I can get my hands on. Which has totally screwed up my metabolism. That being said, I would totally take any diet pill that actually worked, any suggestions??
I was excited last week because I got down to 190, my goal for this week was to get under 190, somehow the scale is saying I gained 5 lbs. I think I might be starting my period again or something because I have been "good" with my diet and exercise.
One of my "downfalls" is that I like to drink. I don't have a sweet tooth, but I really enjoy a beer, cocktail or glass of wine to wind down at the end of the evening. I have given up alcohol before (when I was pregnant) and have no problem doing it, I just enjoy it. I guess you could say I have a "drunk tooth".
Anyway, I am looking for support and new diets to try. I am avoiding going adkins because I don't want to eat meat, but I will try almost everything else. I would really love to get down past 190 which has been seemingly impossible since my son was born.
Also this is the 1st time I have ever discussed my weight with anyone. Even at the doctors, no matter how much I weigh I feel shameful when I get on the scale in front of others, or discuss my weight it makes me want to cry.