Ok, that was the background.
So what's the plan?
Maybe we can help you with that.
Food log? Are you counting calories? WW? Making changes to your eating habits? Something else?
What about fitness? I read P90 two times a week. I'm not familiar with that one -- what level is it? Beginner? Intermediate? Advanced? What else is going on in fitness?
What holds you back? Are you not quite ready to commit to it? Lacking in knowledge or skills that you need to learn first? (ex: learn to cook?)