I have been on this site for several years now off and on. I am sick of feeling fat. So here is my deal. I will try and make it short.
I have been trying to lose weight since my oldest was born almost 10 years ago. I have no will power and am the queen of excuses. About a year and a half ago my husband and I bought a business and moved 4-5 hours away from our friends and family. The business is doing great but keeps us very busy. My husband also works for a local farmer for about 2 months in the fall during harvest which means I am in charge of the business and the kids. Its really not a big deal other than it gives me one more excuse to eat crappy and not find time to exercise. I don't do very good with busy. We are also moving in about 3 weeks so this just puts one more thing on my plate (no pun intended).
My stomach does not know the meaning of full. I eat when I'm bored, tired, stressed, happy. You name it. I am going to be 40 in less than 2 years. I am sick of putting this off and saying, "after this bowl of ice cream I will stop". I find an excuse to quit everything. I will start reading stories on here and then after a bit my low self-esteem kicks in and I tell myself that people on here don't really care what I have to say (I am sounding very pathetic right now but I am just being totally real for the first time in a long time).
I am sick of feeling fat. I am sick of my jeans digging into my stomack. I am sick of not feeling pretty (even though my husband tells me all the time that I am). I have looked into joining a gym (there are 2 of those 24hr gyms here in town) but I just can't afford it and I can't say that I would keep going. If I don't have time to do my DVD's at home I will not go to a gym.
My husband and kids and I are going to FL in just under 3 months. I do not want to go on another vacation where I will not let anyone take pics of me because I hate how fat I look. This has to happen. I have to change TODAY!!
Here is my plan.
I will work out after work (4pm)
I will listen to my stomach and let it tell me when it needs food
I will come on here and up date even if I think no one cares
Here is my goal.
I am 150(ish - my scale broke) now and want to be 130 by Dec 15. That is about 6 - 7 lbs a month.
No more excuses. My new life starts.....now!