Sunnyhikes - I'm in Jersey and it is NOT warm. Getting better and the snow is melting but not a place to visit to defrost.
I have an appointment with the nutritionist today. I haven't been eating on plan (or working out). I have been eating better but still too many treats and sweets. I lost weight since I went to her back at the beginning of January. I know I emotionally eat and thats what I'm trying to get over. I hope it goes well
My bf video recorded me about three weeks ago and I'm walking around with my belly hanging out telling him that he drive me crazy. I hate looking at myself like that. He did take another one last night (mind you he does it with out my knowledge) and you can see a difference. I just want to see a BIGGER one. It got me depressed and questioning why he wants to be with me. It made me feel really unsexy and grossed out. Obviously he loves me the way I am, I guess the problem is I don't love myself the way I am. I also don't feel as big as the pictures and videos of me look. I saw "Just Go With It" on Friday with my girlfriends. There is a scene with Jennifer Aniston and Nicole Kidman belly dancing and their bodies are awesome. Why can't I be rich famous thin and beautiful ?
Happy
Valentines
Day
to all you wonderful ladies. I am sending my love to all you today
cause we deserve it.