begin mini vent/
My relationship with food has always been more emotional than is healthy. I am sure that is the general consensus of the board, so I'm not trying to sound like the Lone Ranger here or anything. lol.
But we all know how when stressful times hit, it's food that we tend to want to run to.
Well, I've had a relapse of such this week and it's frustrating to try and fight through it.
I had two weeks where I was doing very well, on the wagon, had it under control THEN the stress started getting to me.
I won't bore ya'll with the details, but suffice to say I financially support both of my parents, and have for years. Now, my brother is out of a job and has a pregnant wife. They are flat busted broke, so I'm helping them out with their bills. I don't mind doing it, but it's not something I can hold out and do for long. My one little job can't support 5 adults (with two house payments, three cars, and five cell phones!) for that long.
The stress of it all, and the reality of how difficult it's going to be for them to climb back out, has just been hitting me these past two weeks.
I haven't eaten terrible, but I've been doing that thing where you do good all night, then do something stupid like eat 5 cookies before bed (yes, I just did this last night
It's just hard to mentally refocus and get back on track and allow life to happen anyway. Not run to that food for that little bit of solice and try to find my happy place.
To top it off, today is my birthday (I turned 34), and I am soooo not in the mood to deal with that.
I know everyone has been there, so I know this is more a vent than anything.
Overall, I'm a positive person and I do have a strong Faith. I have every confidence that God will see us through this, and I don't doubt that we'll come out just fine.
I guess I just wanted to let off some steam today . . .
/end mini vent