I don't know if it is just me, but it seems like everywhere I turn I see or hear about someone being pregnant. Of course, it seems like almost every celebrity in Hollywood got married over the holiday season and/or announced their baby bump. Even reality tv actors with questionable relationships are hooking up and having babies as well....sigh.
I feel a longing to have a child. I also realize that being this overweight is 1) preventing me in some part from meeting the right guy for me---but only because the pool of men into big women in my area is a bit smaller than the general population, and 2) that my weight could make fertility difficult, once I actually start to try to have a child, and/or 3) that being so overweight (I am over 100lbs over weight) could make labor difficult.
I am going to focus on making this year the year that I really do improve my health and use all of the skills that I have. I feel sadder and sadder when I hear of more and more people getting married and having kids. I am not sad for them, of course, but sad because I feel a bit behind and alone and I wonder if it will happen for me. I figure if I treat myself better, people will see that in my appearance and maybe I will attract someone who would like to swap his DNA with mine.....in a geeky way it would be so cute if he actually asked that! Could you imagine that being written in icing on a cake? Ha!
But anyway....does anyone else have this pang of longing in regards to baby bumps, marriage, hearing the pitter patter of little feet running through Walmart?
Mo cuishle means my darling. My blood.
I get a smiley for every 5lbs. lost!
02/23-318lbs. 03/23 - 309lbs! 9lbs lost in 1 month!
01/01- 305lbs. New Year! 1st goal -- get below 300lbs!