Thank you, Chippie!
I don't feel I am strong enough yet to be calm about the being single aspect. I do feel as if I keep searching....I keep meeting weirdos, so part of me is really afraid of dating (only because I have met sooo many weird guys that people usually are shocked when I tell them stories about this or that guy, etc.) and part of me tries to be optimistic and keep on searching. Also, there is that whole issue of loneliness.
I am resigned in some ways to being open to the idea of being a single mom. I worry about not having family support, however. That would be tough. I soooooo want to be a mom, ya know? But, I know that first I have to get myself together to a point where I can be a great and healthy mom!
I ate some fattening fried food today, but I did avoid buying trigger foods and doughnuts. Tomorrow I will eat a lot healthier.
I figure the more I do to better myself, maybe the more people will notice, and the more that guys will notice and some guy out there will decide that he wants to make little mini-me's with me.
Mo cuishle means my darling. My blood.
I get a smiley for every 5lbs. lost!
02/23-318lbs. 03/23 - 309lbs! 9lbs lost in 1 month!
01/01- 305lbs. New Year! 1st goal -- get below 300lbs!