Oh.. so many..
To feel comfortable around my best friend. This girl has never weighed more then 135 in her life. I love her to death, but sometimes when I'm with her I feel the worst about myself.
To show my Dad that I can do it, but that I don't give a damn what he thinks. We aren't close, he was a crappy father growing up and he still is one, and he's never had a problem making it clear how he feels about my weight. I remember when I was a teen he went with me to pick up my Miata because I'd had a new top put on it, and he told the guy, "I don't know why such a big girl likes these little cars." He is the only person in my family who has ever been like that. My mother and I have talked about me needing to lose weight, but she does it in the right way.
My sister is big too. She probably weighs more then me, but I'd love to be the skinny sister. She's said some pretty crappy things about me behind my back over the past 4 or 5 years and I'd just love to feel like I've gotten even by being hot when she's not.
My 10 year reunion is in 2012. If I go, I want all the guys who I had crushes on that didn't pay me the time of day to be drooling over me, and all the skinny popular girls to be shocked at how good I look. I went to a small private High School so everyone knew everyone pretty well.
I want to be hotter then all my husbands friend's wives.
I want to get second looks again. Even though I was over weight when I was younger, I still have a nice face and I wasn't as big as I am now. Guys checked me out back then. I don't want anything more, I love my husband, but it's still nice to be noticed by hot guys.
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********To Current Goal********
Highest Weight: 275lbs ~ Christmas of 2006.
Weightloss restart: 250lbs ~ March 1, 2011.
Goal 1: 225 ~ **** Met July 15, 2011 ****
Goal 2: Onederland! ~ **** Met January 13, 2012 ****
Goal 3: 174.6(No Longer Obese)
Final Goal: 145
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I just found mine. I want to get even with that evil little inner voice of negativity that always tells me that I can't do anything right--that demon on my shoulder who says I'm nothing, worthless, and not capable of anything useful.
(i'll help you!)
for every 10 libbies lost
in a totally loving way of course! And to be the thin sister, my sister always was thin and totally made fun of me, asking me specifically not to borrow her clothes as not to stretch them out! Can't wait to be able to share a wardrobe, or even to be to small to wear her clothes!
