I finally decided this time I will do this. I am nearing 32 and thought about the years of misfires and the 20 lbs I gained over the last year. I knew when the scale said 254 that this was it. I couldn't fail again. I didn't want to be over 300 lbs and that's were I was heading. I am doing this for me.
I want to enjoy life and do so many things that I have never done. I want to enjoy shopping, I have always hated clothes shopping. I want to be that person people see and think "WOW, she is looking good." I want people to stop seeing my family and thinking/saying "Huh, your sister must be adopted." (she is about 120 lbs.) I want to, if I should ever get married, walk down the aisle or whatever and look fabulous. I want to live, REALLY live, not just exist in life. I want to be less angry at the world and life because of the choices I have made.
Sorry so long and philosophical