BBB - I'm so sorry for what's happening...I agree with all the other posts. Hit the gym. I find that if I'm really sad, mad, frustrated, I'll work out that much harder. (All the endorphins don't hurt either.) I wouldn't look at it as worrying about your figure, think of it as finding a positive way to cope. As close as your are to grandfather, I'm sure he would want you to do that as well.
TTFN (ta-ta for now),
July Goal/Long Term Goal:
"Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win."
- 1 Cor 9:24 (NAS)