Alright so it's been about 4 weeks since I ended my relationship with my BF of almost 2 years. Wow, what a difference. It's only now that I realize how unhappy I really was. Since I ended the relationship I've lost 7lbs. All of this is simply the change in eating and drinking - as in not eating out with him all the time, making healthier choices at home and work and basically not drinking. To be very honest I was eating and drinking my feelings of unhappiness for the last 6 months of the relationship at least and while I know I wasn't blind to what I was doing - I actively ignored it. I haven't even been exercising yet! (I've been thinking about it but the heat has been beating me out... I'm a cold weather girl stuck in a heat wave with no AC
it's a motivation killer for me. It really goes to show how badly I ate and how much I drank while I was with him if I've shed 7lbs in under a month without really putting much effort into it other than not drinking and working on getting some portion and structure back under control with food.
Since the break up I haven't really eaten anything bad and I think the only alcohol I've had was 1 social evening out with friends, 1 girls night in and 1 work event and it was all very minimal. I'm starting to feel better, look better, I'm happier in a million different ways from my butt to my bank account. The best part - I don't want any crap food or booze... which is making it much easier. I suppose I guess I removed my trigger! We ate and drank way too much together and I on my own (we lived separately) ate and drank my way through knowing the relationship was bad. A weight has been lifted!
Anyway for now I've been doing the light breakfast/coffee early, some fruit mid morning, some sort of frozen meal (lean cuisine/smart ones) with a big side of a steamed green veggie around 1pm, a roughly 200 calorie snack higher in protein around 4pm, a light yogurt on my 6pm train home and a light dinner when I get home around 7:30 with smaller portions and a lot of veggies since it's late. So I'm eating pretty regularly throughout the day and am balancing out between 1500 & 1800 calories each day and feel great and am not hungry. As for drinks - I'm plowing down iced tea (home brewed, unsweetened), water, seltzer and the occasional diet coke. Just taking out the regular burgers and beer that we were having all the time and putting some structure back into my daily food plan is making all the difference. Next week I'm adding back in the gym 3 days a week and one night of hot yoga to start. The week after that I have some business travel which I'd normally worry about but this time, I'm actually not worried at all!
Along with all of that I feel like I'm smiling for real for the first time in a long time. I'm going out, seeing friends, doing things, making plans and I'm a lot less depressed and much funner to be around. Even better, we are still friends and it's fine and not awkward at all.
Alright that's it... I just wanted to share my good news now that I finally have some!
FINALLY going in the right direction!
