Congratulations on getting half way already! And on seeing the emotional stuff on the horizon. It is weird but true that we hide behind our fat. Well, not so weird, I suppose: people - all of us, sometimes - think in cliches, and when they see a fat person, they know what we are like. Sure, I know we all have the choice not to buy into that and to be big and gorgeous and individual and memorable - but lots of us don't. Have you seen that episode of Scrubs when all the women become invisible to JD when they put their wedding rings on? That's what fat women are like, especially to men but to women too. Obviously not to those who love us but in the general world we do cease to exist, we really can hide behind the pounds.
When we lose the weight or a significant part of it, that camouflage is no longer there. At the minute, I've seen no sign of being more visible to others (maybe I'm just too old for hubba hubba comments any more lol!) but I am becoming more visible to me, and it's not always easy.
Well done on recognizing your Stuff, and good luck in dealing with it!
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