SweetTink-Thank you so much for pointing out that there are so many other things to think of. I guess when I'm trying to be healthy, it's all consuming, and I forget that there is life outside of it. I guess partially, it's hard because I tend to avoid social situations when I'm eating well because so much revolves around food and drinks. I know that I can go out and have some restaurant food and a drink or two and still be okay, but I feel like it will be a trigger to start me up again.
So instead of doing social things to distract me, I think of what I'm going to eat next, etc. I don't know why. But there are other things out there, and I need to push myself to go towards those positive things.