First I will say I am new and most of you don't know too much about me yet.
My real name is Jamie and I have been struggling with my weight for a very long time... I look back on pictures from before I was 12 years old and see how thin and cute I was. Now obviously I don't want to do this for just looks. Most of us are girls here right? Lol... well I've had a few things come up that are related to my weight... For one... I don't get my period regularly and I'm lucky if I get it 3x a year. Also I'm on high blood pressure medicine.
The whole period thing has really worried me because I've heard people can get cancer or something like that if their body isn't menstruating properly. I also want to eventually be able to conceive children and this is on my mind a lot. Now obviously there is options if I can't like adoption... but I want to have my own if I can. I try not to worry about it for now since it's not time to anyway. Good news is I took the pill for a couple months and I'm off it now for 2 months and I got a little bit of something each month... I guess something is better then nothing... I know it's a weird thing to talk about I am just excited it seems like my body is doing what it's supposed to.
My dad has also had a history of heart problems and has had heart attacks. He is still alive today but also has heart disease. He got to be well over 300lbs... the most I've weighed was 265 and at that point I knew I had to make a change... I have been eating healthier and exercising when I can, I've dropped 30lbs... I'm excited to go to the gym to see my progress.
I have written in this section because I really like the idea of being able to talk to people about this. My biggest problem is that I am an emotional eater and also before that I would eat HUGE portions and eat late at night. Also, most of my diet previously consisted of carbs, and I didn't at all have balance. My dad last night had bought some chocolate bars and put them in the fridge... it was so tempting to grab one last night but I'm very glad I didn't.
I don't want to stop caring and eat because of feeling, I want to eat because my body needs the fuel. I get so uptight sometimes looking at myself in the mirror... I can tell my clothes feel looser, but I still see myself as the same even though I've lost weight... maybe it's just me? Some days it's very hard. I felt like I had a fever earlier and I didn't feel like eating anything. I just had some toast because it's light and I had felt a bit nauseous. I took some tylenol and I'm feeling better now.
I'm trying to take one day at a time and not to feel too bad if I fall down and mess up but to get back up again. I feel very glad this forum is here. I will try to be as supportive as I can to others as well.