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Old 10-23-2008, 09:41 AM   #1
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Unhappy Man, do I need some good energy *rant*

So it's been almost a week that I've been trying to pull myself out of a funk.
Last Friday my partner was laid off from work, leaving me the only breadwinner for a household of 3. My income wouldn't cover the mortgage even if I didn't have other financial responsibilities, which I do have and can't suspend.
Our income has dropped by 2/3. And it will drop more because I will be paying for his health insurance as well, so I'll bring home even less each month.
Unemployment hasn't been much help-in addition to not getting it yet, they are telling him that his amount is less than what I am making (and keep in mind he made double plus what I make.) Basically he'll be getting every month what he used to make (gross) in a week.
He's applying everywhere and I'm looking for anything (a better paying job, a second job) to boost our finances, but I just feel so scared and stressed. And I feel terrible asking people for energy/good thoughts because we lost our "cushy" status (despite that we didn't really have that much to spare.)
It's also totally quashed my ability to focus on losing weight, all I want to do is eat away my anxiety and my energy is in the dumps because I'm not sleeping so it's such a struggle to exercise.

Part of me wants to be positive (so not my nature) and part of me just wants to have a pity party (partly this rant.)
I'm really trying to think that everything will be okay and that he'll find work before our finances get critical, but I don't really have experience with having things turn out okay. I want to curl up and cry all the time.

Ugh. I feel pathetic too, posting this, but I need to get it out of me so I can get past all my jumble of feelings.

Thanks for reading.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" --Theodore Geisel

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