to be motivated, and it's completely bumming me out.
I was doing SO well for the first half of the summer. Then I moved in with my sister and completely fell off track due to several very good (albeit still ridiculous) reasons.
I got down to 139 and was feeling incredible, and now I'm back up to 152. I started Depo, had REALLY bad cravings, and comfort ate. I'm an all or nothing girl - so once I screwed it up I just kept going.
Now none of my clothes fit again, I feel like garbage, and I'm having a really hard time caring again.
The boyfriend pretends not to notice my weight gain, and I pretend not to care. And here I am.
I'm lowering my phone bill so I can afford a gym membership, and I want to start up the C25K again, so I'll be hitting the gym three days a week. I only drink water (lots), black coffee, and vitamin water (maybe half of one per day?) so no super super sugary drinks. For breakfast I have oatmeal and a peach with a small glass of skim milk - but then for lunch and dinner, it's whatever is easy and cheap on campus.
Basically it's all half assed and it's no wonder that I'm blowing up like a balloon
But I'm starting to try again, and the boyfriend is getting involved too (he's joining me in the new gym membership
)
Any encouragement and advice is warmly welcomed.
So there it is - I'm back and ready to start over.