What's it going to take for me to stick with the program? I'm so tired of yo-yo'ing. I'm tired of having no energy, of feeling hideous about myself, of not being fit enough to play with my sweet kids, of feeling so unattractive that I cannot be intimate with my husband...yada, yada, yada. I'm so tired of all of this. I'm currently a member of 2 gyms. Yep. 2. Automatic bank draft payments every month. Do I go? No. I'm wasting money that we barely have to begin with. I'll make a dozen brownies for the kids and eat half of them myself. I ate 2 bowls of pasta/sauce tonight. Each bowl was probably more than 1 serving. I told myself, "At least it's whole wheat pasta!" Of course, I scarfed down a big hunk of buttery garlic bread with it. And then I fought urges from dark days in college when I had serious food issues.
Why can't I do this?
Oh, and I need to update my weight ticker. It's no longer accurate. I had lost that weight but now I'm back up to 252.